Science or Spiritual?

photo from elephantjournal.com

Just earlier this month, I have had continuous out-of-the-world experiences. I have googled up about them and been trying to rule out the exceptions so I could come up with the best conclusion for what exactly I have experienced. As always, Science would come up with tons of reasons, but I have also stumbled upon a few good spiritual ones. So, let me get into detail about what I felt and went through.

The first recent one happened on a Saturday dawn, after I woke up to make milk for my 6-month-old daughter. My husband, Will was up with me for I was pretty exhausted as Baby Mikaela did not have a good night's sleep and had already woken up few times throughout the night. So, he helped give her her feed as I tried to go back to sleep.

As I was just about to drift off, I felt paralysed. I was aware of everything around me - my son, Nathan sleeping beside me; my husband on his iPad after putting Mikaela to bed, but I could not speak nor move. I know they call this Sleep Paralysis and it is normal as it occurs during your REM sleep and what happens is your body has gone to sleep, but your brain is still awake. Hmm, I have experienced sleep paralysis before. However, this was different. I did not hallucinate or feel breathless as would normally be reported by people who experience sleep paralysis. During my sleep paralysis, I felt a tingling sensation travelling up my body, from my toes to the tip of my head. I felt my soul was being sucked out from my body, and the whole time, I was fighting it. I was praying hard in my head as I could not utter a word. This happened for alot of rounds before I finally knocked out perhaps from exhaustion, and then the next thing I knew I was awake when Mikaela woke up that morning. I felt pretty tired, but did not go back to sleep. I remembered what happened earlier, but I shook it off as a reaction from my exhaustion, until...

Will told me he had a nightmare about me, when he went back to sleep after his iPad (which was during or after the time of my experience). He dreamt I was murdered. Coincidence? Perhaps, but do coincidences happen alot of times?

My first such experience was when I was 16. It happened once then and I ruled that out as me being overly stressed out with too many things to juggle with in my hands then. There were school, tuitions, assignments, extracurricular activities - clubs and more clubs. I still remember I was up studying for the Physics test the next day. My little brother saw me before he went to bed in my parents' (he was 5) as he bid me "Goodnight". A while later, I decided to go to bed as well, as I was getting sleepy and could not get anymore Physics into my head. Just as I was drifting off to sleep, I felt paralysed - same thing, could not move nor speak, and I could still hear the football game on the TV my Dad was watching outside in the living room. I could open my eyes, though. I felt that same 'soul being sucked out of body' sensations and I was also praying hard and fighting it. As I opened my eyes, I could see my room as it was, from the side position I was lying in, and as the soul-sucking feeling continued, I could see myself floating up from my bed towards my room's ceiling( I always had my nightlamp on). I kept praying and when I finally snapped out of it, I could not go back to bed anymore and I took out my Physics book to read again. Then I heard my Dad went into his bedroom. A few minutes later, he came into my room and told me my brother was having a nightmare and was calling out to me in his sleep. Dad asked me to go see my brother and tell him I was alright. Coincidence? I felt uneasy, and so I asked if I could sleep on the floor in my parents' for the night. As I was lying there, and my Dad was saying his prayers before bed, my whole body was trembling uncontrollably until I fell asleep. I asked my brother the next day what he dreamt of me the night before, but he shuddered and refused to say a thing about it. He only told me it was too scary.

Ok, and now back to my recent experience.

I went about the whole day as normal, not giving anymore thought about what occurred earlier. Then, that second night, it happened again. This time, it was not sleep paralysis because I was not even asleep yet! Mikaela had a late night, took me some time to put her to bed. Nathan was fast asleep since earlier. Will went downstairs to catch some football on TV. I was just lying down next to Nathan when I felt it. It was that tingling sensation, that cool feeling travelling up my body, and I felt out of the moment, and not myself. Thinking that it was sleepiness which triggered it, I quickly sat upright in bed and the feeling did not go away at all. I hurried downstairs to Will and the entire time, as I was on the move, I could still feel it, and I was fighting with whatever was sucking my soul out of my body at the time. When I got to Will, I literally felt I went all white. My visions were a bit blurry and bright. When Will saw me, he quickly got up because I had goosebumps all over me. He turned off the TV and lights and held me as we went upstairs. I kept talking to him, as I fought the feeling. It was as if my body was going to collapse the very next minute and I did not know what was going to happen to my soul.

As we got to the bedroom, I fumbled for the Holy Bible. I had the lights on as I sat in bed to read the words of God. I was asking God to please not let anything happen to me then, No, not then, as it was the middle of the night and I had two kids to care for. As I was reading the bible, my body trembled violently and I felt very cold, and had rounds of goosebumps even though the air-conditioner was turned off and Nathan was actually sweating in his sleep. Will was quietly reading from his iPad beside me, only asking me once in a while if I was okay, as I trembled uncontrollably. He said my face was white. After about an hour of trembling, it stopped and I felt warm. I said my prayer and tried to go to sleep, hugging the Bible.

Hear this. Before what occurred, Will came up to the room because he said he heard a woman wailing and thought it was me and so he went to check if we were all alright. I certainly did not wail. I was putting Mikaela to sleep. I heard nothing either.

I googled up my 2nd night's experiences. There was OBE (Out of Body Experience) and Astral Projection - everything to do with the soul leaving the body. I read that sleep paralysis is part of the process of OBE, followed by vibrations and loud buzzing sounds in the head. Well, I never had any vibration and certainly did not hear any sound at all. Plus, the 2nd time, I was not even asleep! I could not find anything about OBE or astral projection while on the move or in an active state.

There were OBE, normally occurring in people during near-death experiences; and OBE triggered and induced by drugs or chemicals - used by military as Biological Weapons in spying on enemies in another place or country; and self-triggered OBE - there were videos on YouTube showing steps on how to have your soul out of your body for the night! Or there was meditation which can also allow you to experience OBE. It is claimed that you can have the freedom to travel to places you have always dreamt of, check on loved ones elsewhere and even meet up with other souls - sounds cool, huh? NOT! I think it sounds crazy! It is a completely out-of-the-world and scary experience. You do not know what is going to happen to you next and after your soul leaves your body, then? What if it never comes back? Besides, like I said, I did not go through the proper progress towards OBE. Neither did I trigger it nor did anything unconsciously which may have triggered it. It was against my will and I had to fight it even when I was moving around!

Then I tried searching on other possibilities. I came upon 'Panic Attack' - this is actually a medical condition, not the 'panic attack' expression that people so widely misuse as over-exaggeration in everyday sentences. There were blurred vision, feeling out of place and not yourself, but I did not experience everything else listed, such as bad headache or nausea or tummy ache, etc. People with panic attacks usually continue feeling weird for a longer time after. I did not.

I also came upon many stories of similar or close to my encounters. Some say it is Paranormal, some say it is demonic attacks.

Whatever it is, I feel that praying works and knowing that God is around and with me makes me feel safe and comfortable. I am not claiming that I am holy. I am not perfect, a sinner and have many times let God down by my human and earthly stupidity. I do know that He is always there for me -even at times when I have gotten too 'busy' for Him. O Lord, please forgive me.

Two days after my encounters, I did not feel anything and was able to catch some sleep at night. I was praying the Rosary and reading the Bible before sleep. However, on the third evening, when I was alone, I felt a presence and I began to pray out loud and I said "By the Power of the Lord Jesus Christ, I command you to leave me alone. Leave us alone!" When I said this, I had goosebumps all over as I felt unseen entities flying in chaos around me, and then cold wind blowing up my back. I could even hear the wind. There was nothing around to have blown such wind. The windows were not opened. As I continued fighting it, saying "Leave us alone!", I felt weak and had that feeling of soul being sucked out again, while I was wide awake and on the move.

I called up my parents to tell them about these. They got worried, but asked me to continue praying and putting my faith in God.

That night, I said my prayers and Rosary and read the bible before bed and when falling asleep, I could still feel there was cold wind blowing around me, but there was this layer around me, protecting me. So, nothing touched me, but I was aware it was around. Well, Praise the Lord!

Call me cliche or crazy. I do not care. Besides, Science exists because of God. He is the Creator afterall. It does not interest me what people say or think of me for I care more about what God would think of me when I stand before Him on Judgement Day.

So, I will continue praying the Rosary everyday now and read the Words of God, for it truly indeed, is very powerful. I still would feel presences sometimes, but I am no longer afraid.

The Lord is my Saviour. There is nothing I shall fear.

The Lord is my Shepherd. There is nothing I shall want.

Lord, have mercy!

I am so pissed off! I am so sick and tired! I am angry! Lord, please take away all these anger and hatred or any impure thoughts in me.
I wish I can get a Time Out... But there is no such thing. This is not the time to be weak. So not the right time. O Lord, give me strength.
O Dear Lord, have mercy on me.

Year 2012

Happy New Year! Heh, comes a little late here.

The welcoming of the new year was a fun and memorable one this time around. Our friends decided to throw a costume party. Anyone without a costume would be fined a 30-second shot of pure liquor. Brrr~!! 3-second shots were a bit too much already, so no, thanks! We managed to custom make our very own last-minute and low-cost costumes...

Greek togas. Haha! I especially enjoyed making the laurel crown - the leafy headpiece.

Here, with some of the other girls and their awesome costumes.

and some of the rest...

It's been 9 days into the year 2012. Am down with a bad sorethroat which leaves me drowsy and nauseous, and tired pretty much from the restless sleep with odd dreams I've been getting.

Heck! I can leave myself feeling helpless and beaten up by that, or I can choose to fight it and cure myself the soonest I can. And I'm going with the latter.

The same goes to alot of things in my life now.

"When life throws you lemons, make lemonade."

I am going to really live up to that saying starting this year onwards. Take each day as it comes and make the fullest out of every day and live it like it is my last...

There are alot of things in my life, be it past or present, which bite me. However, I have come to realize that all these experiences in life are what make us who we are today. With what we already know now, we'd sometimes wish to go back in time and change certain things. I do know this - that the bigger regrets later in life are the things we never did, not those we have done. Everything happens for a reason and that's why some things and people don't make it further into our lives. So, live! Life is too short to be sitting around, fretting or grieving or wondering! :)

Man in the Mirror

Nothing speaks louder for itself than the title and lyrics of this song from the legendary Michael Jackson.
"I'm starting with the man in the mirror. I'm asking him to change his ways, and no message could have been any clearer. If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make that change..."

I do not know what does it, but I guess this is what it means to have grown up. I am 25 now (Scary, I know when it is already halfway towards the big 3-0 *Gulps*). Then again, age is just a number and yes, I believe that each birthday should be a celebration for the experience and achievements one has accomplished throughout his/her life.
These days, I have come to realize that amidst any bad vibes and stress from the environment, I have managed to not let those negativity get to me too much. I find that I react in better and positive ways. I have learnt to shut myself away from certain petty things or issues which are not worth my time or concern. And the effect of all these, I have noticed that the people around me react and behave in better ways, too - well, at least towards me.
Although I am currently stuck mostly 24/7 with the kids, I find that I manage to find time for myself, doing minor things which I like or which amuse me even for a short little while. Either the newfound bliss from that or the joys I get from seeing my kids grow and accomplish each of their milestone over time, I have actually found my motivation and passion. *Yay*
For one, notice that I have started blogging again?
I am ready to take on new challenges. I have decided. I used to dream. Now my dreams have become plans. And 2012 will be a brand new year for great changes. :)

So, it is true that the way you act and think or feel have an effect on your environment. The Universe has a way of acting upon your thoughts or belief and expectations.

"You must be the change you want to see in the world." -Mahatma Gandhi

I believe that every obstacle is a blessing in disguise. The bigger the challenge, the bigger the opportunity that awaits you. You just got to open the right door.

Weyhey!

*This was supposed to be my first post for the year before 'Shameless', but somehow, it got lost or was never published.*

Whoa! It's been over a year my blog's been abandoned. There have been a lot of changes in this one year. One of 'em, we've welcomed a new member! Nathan's a big brother now to his baby sister, Mikaela! She's 19 weeks old now, by the way.
So, for the past 4 months up till now, my days AND nights pretty much revolve around the two kids. As joyful as our bundles of joys are, child caring is very exhausting! It is like a full time job, round the clock, that is! - entertainer and provider during the day, a comforter and guard and provider at night - waking to their cries of discomfort, for milk or diaper change(s), from nightmare perhaps... and the list goes on. One kid was bearable. Now that I've got two, I've only got my two hands to juggle between them two - loads of multitasking involved. I don't know how people in the olden days with a troop of kids and no maid, did it, but I guess they were Wonder Women! To those single parents out there, give yourselves a pat on your shoulders. You've done great! It gets pretty frustrating at times when you are unappreciated or under-valued for all you've done. For those who think that caring and raising kids are easy jobs, well, F*ck U's! - sorry for being vulgar, but Whew, that sure felt gooood.

Being a mother, our job does not end at giving life and bringing our child(ren) into this world. (Any fertile woman can bear and give birth to a child, but not any woman can be a mother.) It is a lifetime commitment. Unlike our enemies, we cannot ignore or stay away from our children just because they have turned bad, nor can we leave them out on our doorstep just because they give us headaches. What they are or will be is a result of our guidance and the roles we have shown them from young. Even when the children are old and grey, they will always be a mother's babies.
With or without a husband, once a woman is with child(ren), she will never be (or at least feel) single again (at least to me). Like it or not, she will always come in a package. :)

Shameless

Meet the Gallaghers. Mother, Monica left the family and has gone MIA for the past 21 months; father, Frank (the main character of the show)'s a hopeless drunk; eldest daughter, Fiona is playing Mom to the younger siblings and trying to keep everyone in order; eldest son, Lip (Philip)'s an academic genius and a science whiz who makes a living out of doing assignments for other fellow students or sitting for their SAT exams and giving physics tuitions to a neighborhood girl who's paying him with sexual favors; the third kid, Ian, is in Army ROTC in school and he's gay- which was first discovered by his brother, Lip; youngest daughter, Debbie's got a loving heart and she's also pocketing some of the money from the charity she's collecting year round; younger son, Carl is a rule breaker and likes the thrill in making other kids and animals suffer; and the toddler, Liam, is black and no one knows how.
I've been watching this TV series whenever I can - when the kids are settled or asleep. Pretty interesting. Such a dysfunctional family- 6 kids with a selfish and pathetic excuse of a father who's always claimed he's a proud and devoted single father, but spends his days and nights drunk and passed out on practically anywhere possible; a mother who could abandon her kids when the youngest was only 2 months old; yet it's amazing how the siblings manage to make ends meet every day, of course with Fiona, being the main caretaker and decision-maker who has to work endless dead-end jobs with minimum wages to make sure the bills get paid. It goes to show how affected the kids will be when the parents are screwed up. Nevertheless, I like the strong bonds between the independent siblings and how they stick together through all the good and mostly rough times. It's fun, witty, hilarious, naughty and downright senseless at times, but enjoyable at the same time. It's reality. Hits me on the head as a reminder again and again, that whenever I feel like I'm stuck in sh*thole, there are many out there who has suffered or is suffering more. If the Gallaghers can pull it through, what excuse do I have, really?

I'm watching the US version, based on the original award-winning British one on Channel 4 with the same name.
They say the British version is better (I reckon it must be, judging by the fact that it's an award winner), but I love the actors and actresses in the US version.

Money Matters?

It was listed on Yahoo! that money is a main problem and the culprit to a broken marriage.

Is it really?

They say the lack of money leads to arguments between the couple, hence the wreakage in the long run.

It is necessary to have a good financial health, whether one is in a marriage or not, no doubt. Having enough money to support a couple's or the family's standard of living is a convenience.
However, I personally think that the major problem and the culprit to any fights or problem in a marriage is not money itself. It is rather, one's perception of money and the financial roles that should be played by each individual in a married life.
Once you have understood or come to terms with each other regarding the responsibilities of the husband and the wife regarding money matters, the lack of money will never be the blame if the marriage should fail. I guess human being human are just too proud or ignorant to admit that it is their own fault. What is the point of marriage counselling then if for every failed marriage, the divorcees simply conclude that it was because of money problem? Perhaps that is why the poll states a high percentage and shows money being the number 1 marriage killer these days.

When you are single and unattached, it is easy spoiling yourself rotten with the money that you have or will earn. You can even spend away till you burn a hole in your pocket, for all you care, and no one ought to care nor bother you if it is your own money (unless you get into debts, then you need not worry about creditors).
So, when one were to get married, this easygoing single's perception ought to be shifted. There will be another person who will and has every right in your life, to care about your finances. When you start a family, your roles shift as well. There will of course, be more responsibilities. Until you understand fully the concept of marriage and are wise enough about money matters in a marriage, then providing financially for the family should never be labelled as 'burden' - sounds familiar?

Money is essential for alot of things, but really, money is not everything.
Money can buy you a house, not a home. Money can get you some of the beautiful women in the world or the hottest young boytoy, but it can never find you true love. Money can buy you all the luxuries that you could ever wished for as a kid, but it can never guarantee you happiness. These tend to sound a bit cliche now, you might think, but they still stay true. I believe they do apply.
So, what do we work for? Money? So what if you were to have billions of dollars under your name? Think again.


Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness, however, is the key to success. One has to love the job one is doing and be happy, and everything else shall fall into place.

Boo!

How sad. I just saw I have only managed 2 posts for 2010 up to date. Boo~!

Living the Moment

Wow! I just finished browsing through my previous posts on my currently 'neglected' blog. Well, it just looks neglected, but really, I have at several attempts logged in and thought of posting something up, but either stopped halfway 'cause I got stuck, or I simply ended up staring blankly at the screen 'cause I had no idea where and how to start.

Not that I know for sure what I am to write now, but I figured, yeah, it is better to throw in whatever comes to mind. Just write rather than abandon the whole idea. I do miss writing, and certainly do not want this passion to just fizzle out. So, it is time to get the ball rollin' again.

Ah, it is good to be back at hometown, spending time with my family and Nathan. After few days of going out with parents, I now realize my memory has been pretty poor lately! I find I cannot remember or recall things I did or places I visited for the past few years. My memory had always been great, and I can still recall alot of things from my past, before the past current few years, that is. So, what happened in between?

Have I got too busied with life's expectations to remember to stop and live in the moment? Perhaps. Well, no. Most probably, that is the case.

Hmm.. How to live in the moment?

They say hold no expectations and drop all judgement. When u expect, you are not savouring the moment and experience at hand. When you judge, either positively or negatively, you are making a conclusion of how things will turn out already, before anything happens.
So, instead of living in the future - worrying about what tomorrow will be, we should just take a step back and analyse and make use of what is at hand. Enjoy now, today. They call it the 'Present' afterall.
I remember at times before, while driving or walking alone, I would remind myself to stop thinking and just take in my surroundings - the trees, the blue sky, the white puffy clouds, the birds, the sun or the moon and the stars. They are still there, always. And they are beautiful. We have just gotten ourselves too busy to remind ourselves that such wonderful creations are created by God for us. It may seem they serve little purpose, but do you really think so?
Also, after looking back at my previous posts, I realize I wrote the most back in 2008. I guess I lived in the moment at that time. Of course not everyday was happy day. Life is filled with ups and downs. But yeah, I remember I treasured every single day and moment or experience then, whether good or bad. Oh, and I had that intention to write at least every month for the year. So, my year had a purpose.
So, I guess I need to start getting back my life - living in the moment, and finding my purpose.
Cherish the moment. It is the little little things in life that matter most in the end. :)

Set me free

Right before you close your eyes
to go to bed at night,
Do I still cross your mind?
When you dream in your sleep,
Do you dream or wish to dream of me?
When you open your eyes
to the morning light,
Do I come to mind, ever?
When I am with you,
Are you really there for me
and with me? (not just physically?)
When you are up on top,
in your happiest moments,
Do you remember me?
If you do something,
knowing it will hurt or offend me,
Will you feel for me?

If I say I am happy,
Do you laugh with me?
If I tell you I am sad,
Will you hear me out
and not turn away?
When I dream a dream,
Will you hope and dream
for me?
Or will you put me down?
If I tell you I am dying...
Will you still care
and love me all the same?

I do not ask for your full attention,
As I respect your personal space
and rightful freedom.
I never ask for you to change (for me)
If you do, your nasty ways,
I would want it to be for you.
I do not ask for all your heart,
For I know you have dear family
and friends to care for (& so do I).
I do not want your money,
a big house or fancy cars.
For I believe I can earn
and achieve the same.

But who am I to demand
from you anything?
What right do I have to
make you see and do me right?
No, I do not own you,
Nor do you, me.

When you tell me, "I Love You",
What is the meaning behind it?
What makes you so sure you do?
And what makes me so worthy of your love?

Help me see,
(Oh, I have tried.)
Let me be...
Or, just set me free.

Goodbye, 2009, Welcome, 2010!

So, once again, another year is coming to an end. I've said this tons of times before, but it's true - Time really flies!

2009 had been a very interesting year. I know I started out slow, and wasn't exactly sure it would turn out good at all. Well, it had been a roller coaster ride, I must say. There were the ups and the downs; the challenges - good and bad; the surprises; loads of changes - new things, new places, new people; and not forgetting, the fun. ;)

I didn't have clear resolutions written down for the year, though. Oh well, what's past is past. Perhaps I should start journaling.

This time around, I'm ready to welcome 2010! I've got my Bucket List already. :) It will be an amazing year, I know it!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Christmas is here!:)

It's December again, and my schedule has been soo packed since come December, no kidd! I'm pretty exhausted as of now, but it's all great!
There were definitely some major changes, and yes, changes may be hectic & difficult, but once you get the hang of things, you'll find they do you more good than sticking to the status quo.
For once and for real this time around, I can say "I'm having fun!" again. *All Smiles*
Some self-discoveries & awareness & improvement along the way. The answers may not be right out there, but I'm trying each & every day to be as present as I can be, and to appreciate life and everything and everyone I have around me.
Thanks to all my great friends for just being in my life, whether you have been here for years or we have just met. You guys are all awesome! There are no accidents, and indeed, Everything does happen for a reason. Praise the Lord!

It has been an amazing last month of the year. And my favorite occasion is just around the corner, too! 'Tis the season to be jolly, Fa la la la la la la la la...

People walk in and out of our lives every day. Some may stay, but some come and go. Regardless, one thing is for sure. Our lives will never be the same again.

Life

Live life to the fullest. Love like you have never loved before. Do whatever makes you happy.

Yeah, they sure make these sound pretty easy. As if Life is that easy.

I know 'Everything happens for a Reason', but I still can't quite figure out what the reasons are. HAH! Perhaps, in time to come, I'll see, they say. (I hope!)

Life is more meaningful when you have a goal and you work towards achieving it. I do have goals, but I have come to realize that it's not everytime one gets what he/she wants.

What do I really want? People tell me I'm still young. Plenty of chances and a long road ahead. I don't feel young, though I do need to constantly remind myself that I am only 22 (well, coming 23 soon). I haven't felt young since...I forgot when. Perhaps since I became a mother. As much as I love my son, Nathan (he is the joy of my life and means the world to me - the greatest gift from God), I still need to remind myself again and again that I am a mother and he is here to stay. And I will continue to provide the best I can for him.

I really shouldn't complain, should I? Oh, why do they make it seem so easy in the books and movies? Fairytales suck! They're bunch of lies, portraying and depicting false images of what reality really is.

I don't know if it's a phase in life, but right now, I feel suffocated. I need space. I need to breathe. I need a break. A break from Life.

Mixed Feelings

I guess it is normal to have the ups and then the downs in life. At this very moment, I think I am somewhere on the verge of plunging 'down'...

I guess one can't always be on the Up. I guess it was because I was focusing so much on keeping myself 'up' in the high that I forgot to look back and through and analyze the situations. All the times, I kept telling myself to be strong and be positive (Not that these are bad). I am, indeed glad that I chose to be that way. Look where it has put me now! :)

Then again, I guess I was too busy with making everything else and Life perfect that I forgot to really seize the moment, every ups and downs, especially.

I can't believe that it has just dawned on me... after all these whiles.
What have I been missing? What about me?
Time flies.

The Notebook

I know this is a 2004 film, but I just watched it, and I have got to say, it has got to be one of the best movies, ever!

Based on the novel by American romance-fiction novelist, Nicholas Sparks (who also wrote A Walk To Remember, which also made it to the big screen), this tearjerker tells of a love story, a love so true between Noah and Allie. Sparks said his wife's grandparents inspired him to write The Notebook. They were married for over sixty years when he met them, hence decided to pen down such true love.


The movie starts with an elderly man reading the story out of a notebook to a female fellow patient suffering from dementia, in a modern-day nursing home. Then it brings us back to the 1940s when 17-year-old local country boy, Noah Calhoun (Ryan Gosling) first laid eyes on the love of his life, a city girl from a 'richer-than-god' family, Allie Hamilton (Rachel McAdams).



And the rest...Phew! I have never cried so much and so badly watching a movie (apart from The Green Mile), but The Notebook moved me soo much that I am still affected by it.

The chemistry between Ryan and Rachel is just awesome! They are both great actor and actress and both beautiful people.

And they actually ended up together - Gosling claimed their love story is much sweeter than Noah and Allie's. It was like they were destined to be together. Both Gosling and McAdams were born in the same town in Canada, in the same hospital. Talk about coincidence! It is sad, however, that this has become history. They just make the perfect pair!



So, soulmates do exist. A love story is not measured nor judged by the good and sweetest times together, but by the hard and testing times which two persons manage to walk through, and make it the best and sweetest love story ever.

The Notebook is a beautiful movie - a definite must-watch! See for yourself :)

Destiny

"Destiny is the bridge you build to the one you love."
-from 'My Sassy Girl'

Sweet. And true.

Most people tend to sit and wait for Destiny to come knocking on their doors. They say "If it's meant to be, it will be."
Well, yes. Destiny can come in many forms, and sometimes, they may have come and passed or may have been right in front of you the whole time, but if nothing has been done, and you continue to sit and wait for something to happen, it most probably will never happen.

Let's put it this way. In this context, 'Destiny' applies to everything else besides just love. If you want and long for something so badly, you will be working hard towards getting it. Moreover, if Destiny (or an opportunity) has already presented itself right in front of you and you know that it is right, will you let it slip through your fingers?

I watched the original Korean version of My Sassy Girl before, but did not quite get it. When I watched the American version last night, I thought it was beautiful. It is simply worth watching.

So, it is all a matter of Choice. You either create your own Destiny or just leave it to what we like to call Fate to do the job.

I do believe everything happens for a reason, but I love to choose to create my own Destiny. For that, I am grateful of what life has brought unto me and shaped me into today. :)

As I Mature

I got this off my girlfriend. It gave me good laughs, but hey, these are facts! (Well, most of them.)

As I Mature

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people are just assholes.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust,
and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others
- they are more screwed up than you think.

I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do,
unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of how hot or steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take its place!

I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house,
one of your kids did it.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon
and all the less important ones just never go away.



Okay, for the big willy and huge boobs part, I'd rather have a big heart & good brain.

Also, I don't believe that money works in saving a dying relationship. Of course it makes everything convenient when there is money, but if none is trying or playing his/her part to revive the relationship, it cannot be saved. Period.


Anyways, just for laughs :)

Gloomy

It's been gloomy lately, raining endlessly.
I certainly don't mind the cool and dark weather... as long as the rain stops and none of the other catastrophic events follows - flash floods, land slides which lead to power outage in certain areas for days. It's depressing.
The weather around the world has apparently gone nuts! What with heavy snowing in the north and extreme heat waves in the south. Again, the nasty effects of global warming. I'm not trying to sound cliche but it feels like Armageddon is near.
So, it's February already. What have I done so far?
I know I haven't exactly written down my resolution(s) for the year 2009, though I've had a few good ones in mind.
I can't help feeling that more unfortunate events will follow during this year - never thought that it's heading anywhere great. Silly, I know. I should be optimistic and looking on the bright side, as I've always implied before.
Alright. I better get back to my work. Take each day as it comes.

Come whatever, let Thy will be done.

Happy 2009!

So, it's another year and to date, there's 359 days left to go till the next.

2008 had been a great year. It had been awesome! I guess time flies when you're actually enjoying yourself.

Loads had happened and loads are happening and loads more are yet to come...

Heck! I don't know what I'm blogging here.
I haven't got the inspiration, hence the no-updates.

For now, let's just hope 2009 will be a much better year!

Happy New Year, everyone!

Twilight Fever

"I've never given much thought about how I'd die, but if I were to die in the place of someone I love, I guess that's a good way to go."

I was completely not in the thrill or excitement & I did not even get what the craze was all about, until I agreed to go on a movie date with my girlfriends from work last Friday night.

Since then, I'm hooked...


I've always been fascinated with Vampires, but there's something special which sets this movie apart from any other vampire movies I've watched.

I thought it'd be another soapy, cheesy teenage love story, but somehow, either the casts are good actors and actresses or they really connected, I could actually feel the intensity and chemistry.

Bram Stoke's Count Dracula, where Count died in the arms of a female human he loved, was sweet and all, but it did not touch me as much as this one does.

There was just something about Edward Cullen...(I only like the character)


Sad that such man only appears on the silver screen.
Sadder still is the fact that he isn't even human. *LOL*
Okay, I won't spoil the rest of the movie for those who haven't watched.

I can't wait to have my own collections of all the 4 books! It's sold out, twice!