Grump. Grunt. Tsk tsk... Wht is my problem?!
I've been bad. Real bad. I'm short-tempered. N get upset n mad at the slightest annoyance. Where is Patience? Wherever is The Smile? The Laughter? Even Babe's commenting on my lack of laughter n smile these days. One, I ain't well. Yesh, it's been a looong time n it's getting on my nerves now! I wish this discomfort would just go away! Was sick, down with cough n flu bout a month ago. When those were gone, I started having upset tummy. I've lost appetite n taste for food. Food I used to enjoy, now, they make me sick at the thought of 'em! Everytime after I eat, I feel like puking n well, most times, I literally do. Wait. I ain't bullimic! Or am I?!
Another thing. London. It makes me sick! I miss life in Manchester! =( At least there, I lived in a Home. And a Big n Beautiful one I shared with friends. N it was quite cheap! Here, it sucks! U can barely find an affordable n beautiful yet comfortable place! My rental's a killer! N it doesn't feel like home! N working in London sucks! Why do I always get 'shitty' jobs n stingy bosses?!? Am I cursed? Owh.. Here I go again..Complaining. Grumpy Ol' Me. Perhaps it's a Punishment for being bad.
N just before I quitted my last lousy job, I got into a 'fight' with the annoying common British Yobs. Shocker? Believe it. I'd never been soo pissed in my life! My screams n shouts attracted staffs from the kebab shop across the street. *Shrugs* Like I care! Those stupid hooligans came into our restaurant, drunk, looking all pathetic n literally begged for two quids! What is wrong with these people?! N tht was NOT the first encounter. They ain't beggars but act worse than one n they're f*cking annoying! (Mind my language, but I've had enough with these common no-brainers)! They're practically loafers who create havocs n troubles. Kids who skip schools n wears tracksuits ALL seasons n hang around outside any neighbourhoods, creating soo much annoyance n noise like they own the place! N just a few days ago in the papers, one normal English citizen was STABBED to death by these Yobs (Common british youngsters) for asking them not to make so much noise as it was the wee hours n the neighbours are all tryin to sleep. WTH! N they ARE dayym proud to be the Common Hooligans they are! The upper-class n more educated people hate them. The police hate them cause they give 'em headaches. Vandalism. Drugs. N I Despise them!
Okay, so this drunk common GIRL came in with a friend, acting all sympathetic (she looks more pathetic to me) asking for two pounds for the bus. N she kept asking us to hold her bag, I don't know wht for! The manager said No. N we kindly told them No. Man, but she kept on asking me to hold her bag n begging 'Puh-leese'. Tht was it! First, It's Bullshit! Look at her! She had the money to get herself drunk n in her bag, she had a whole pack of ciggarette! N there she was, claiming she did not have any change for a bus ride?! N who was she kidding?! A bus fare is a pound fifty! N she later tried to make a mess in the restaurant. Even the English customer, eating got pissed!
So, she went out n came back seconds later with loads of change in her hands. She walked in n came up close to me, asked me "Wht do u do?" (She's not even making sense!) to which I replied sternly "It's NONE of your business!" N she said "Yes, It is" n tried to flip all the dishes on the buffet table. Tht was all it needed to spark things up. The manager got mad n pushed her out n closed the door. The customer walked up n pushed her outside. She kept kicking on the glass door n tried to get back in. She kept pushing back n kicking n her other useless friend spat on the angry customer who ended up kicking her! (Serves her right!) I was wayy too mad to remember wht I shouted then.
N tht was when her sissy common boyfriend came to the scene. All the time he used only his mouth, which I don't even know wht he's muttering! N the stupid girl broke the glass door.. Tht ended in police case for vandalism n causing troubles during people's business hours N for drinking and smoking when she's underage. Plus, the friend said she was pregnant! (This is another thing. These common lazy arseholes, they get emselves pregnant young, end up being single parent n they get money from the government. So, the more kids they bear, the more money they get. N other hardworking people who work their asses off in the country get taxed horribly..for wht? To feed these common lazy people n give em places to stay once they turn 16 n if their parents don't want em!) N in one night, I sat in a police car n an Undercover officers' car - to help find n identify the culprit who hurried away when she saw the police. CHICKENS! Where were the brave n screaming hooligans back at the scene?!? HAH! She was handcuffed and was crying, begging the police officer to let her go n tht she did nothing wrong. N the sissy boyfriend kept eyeing me n muttering god-knws-wht. Argh!
Oh Dear God, I shall not have so much hatred and anger in me. Such people exist, I know. N I shall learn to forgive n forget. (That girl slapped me! I didn't lay a single finger on her. Cause If i did, even if she started it, I'd be in trouble...because she's British n under 16. -_-" Man, I really don't like how some British laws go.)
I know it's hard to love our enemies, but I knw I'm such a sinner n yet, You love us all the same.
Show me The Light, Lord.
Okay.. I hope these kids are fine n tht they'll see The Light as well.
*Sigh* ..N I feel a little better now.
Praise be to God!
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