I have been, in fact, I am still pretty much going through a rough - (How shall I put this?) - "emotional roller coaster". There are many things going through my head, many things I worry about every day, and a million questions running through my mind. Having said these, I acknowledge I do not know everything. There are so many I do not know yet, and I am willing to know more, through God and from God.
The confusing part(s) is I know what I want, but is this what He wills? I have made a lot of poor decisions in my life, and because of these, I have disappointed not only myself, but my loved ones and mostly, God. I am aware that His good grace is overflowing though I am unworthy, but it is not cheap. It came with a hefty price. "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life." - John 3:16
I understand that now so much more than I ever did before.
"Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you." - Matthew 7:7
Therefore, I ask for wisdom to make the right decisions. Yes, He answers in so many ways, but I guess I am a little slow. I do not want to be a fool anymore.
I am not afraid or ashamed to admit that I may be going through depression. The flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing. I think I need a powerful inner healing.
Who am I to demand appreciation when the Lord keeps giving and loving even when the world has turned away from Him?
We go through tremendous agony or sufferings mostly due to our past sinful actions and ways. Who are we to complain when Jesus went through pain and death as an innocent soul to save us all?
Who are we to judge or give up on another when God has never given up on us? How would we know if we cannot save another?
What is/are our sacrifice compared to the sacrifices the Lord made for us?
Life on earth is only temporary.
