Life

Live life to the fullest. Love like you have never loved before. Do whatever makes you happy.

Yeah, they sure make these sound pretty easy. As if Life is that easy.

I know 'Everything happens for a Reason', but I still can't quite figure out what the reasons are. HAH! Perhaps, in time to come, I'll see, they say. (I hope!)

Life is more meaningful when you have a goal and you work towards achieving it. I do have goals, but I have come to realize that it's not everytime one gets what he/she wants.

What do I really want? People tell me I'm still young. Plenty of chances and a long road ahead. I don't feel young, though I do need to constantly remind myself that I am only 22 (well, coming 23 soon). I haven't felt young since...I forgot when. Perhaps since I became a mother. As much as I love my son, Nathan (he is the joy of my life and means the world to me - the greatest gift from God), I still need to remind myself again and again that I am a mother and he is here to stay. And I will continue to provide the best I can for him.

I really shouldn't complain, should I? Oh, why do they make it seem so easy in the books and movies? Fairytales suck! They're bunch of lies, portraying and depicting false images of what reality really is.

I don't know if it's a phase in life, but right now, I feel suffocated. I need space. I need to breathe. I need a break. A break from Life.

Mixed Feelings

I guess it is normal to have the ups and then the downs in life. At this very moment, I think I am somewhere on the verge of plunging 'down'...

I guess one can't always be on the Up. I guess it was because I was focusing so much on keeping myself 'up' in the high that I forgot to look back and through and analyze the situations. All the times, I kept telling myself to be strong and be positive (Not that these are bad). I am, indeed glad that I chose to be that way. Look where it has put me now! :)

Then again, I guess I was too busy with making everything else and Life perfect that I forgot to really seize the moment, every ups and downs, especially.

I can't believe that it has just dawned on me... after all these whiles.
What have I been missing? What about me?
Time flies.